People are always asking me, "what are you?" My first instinct is to always answer, "HUMAN", "WTF kind of question...?" or something else that would make me a smart ass since I know they are usually referring to my nationality, race, etc
ANSWER:
I am Arabic (S/O to Saudi Arabia) and Black. It has also been speculated that my father was Dominican but for all intensive purposes we will omit that!
I have not been to Saudi, in many years BUT I plan to make a trip in the very near future. So, stay tuned for that.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Small Soap Box
Maybe someone can shed some light on this....but WHY are people so concerned about other people's lifestyles?!?!? They gotta know if your gay, straight, single, married, do you have children, what are you drinking, do you smoke, and why? I think it is just noisy! lol. Listen, if we are not having sex or you not trying to have sex with me, you have NO reason to be asking me about my sexual preference, relationship status, and lifestyle choices. Until you start taking care of my responsibilities there is no reason for you to have any questions for me (end of story).
MY favorite mascaras right now!!!!
I am IN LOVE WITH THESE TWO MASCARAS right now. Maybelline Falsies and Maybelline One by One. They are both great mascara formulas, and the brushes are fantastic. The brushes are strong enough to apply several coats.
AFTER APPLICATION
I do not use a primer or any base nevetheless, my mascara stays on so well!!!!
AFTER APPLICATION
Application
- Apply Maybelline Falsies first. I usually apply 2 coats to each eye.
- Drying time is abt 40-50 secs.
- Definitley, apply additional coats while lashes are WET.
- Apply Maybelline One by One, immediateley after the Maybelline Falsies. (again, 2 coats)
- I suggest you do one eye at a time to avoid lashes from drying before second mascara application.
Braid Out
Self Love 101
I have just had an experience in my life where I have had very ill feelings for a very good friend of mine. There are many emotions involved in these ill feelings so it is a bit complex but I will attempt to sum it up, to my best ability. It is your common supportive friend and back burner story. I was the supportive friend who was put on the the back burner. I have been full of anger, hurt feelings, and hate (which is a very uncomfortable state of mind). I just assumed I felt this way because my friend had hurt me but honestly, I do not think that is the ONLY reason. There is something within myself that I must find peace with. That is not to say that my friend is not in the wrong but there is more to my anger than merely her actions.
I know one of the reasons I got the most upset was because, I was upset at myself. I have had the same solid circle of friends for over 7 years, which has been fantastic. I do not let many in that circle or take on many (random) friends. I have several acquaintances but not to many best or close friends. I was upset at myself for letting my guard down and becoming vulnerable enough to allow someone to be shitted on.
I can be impulsive when I feel violated, it is like a defense mechanism. I know there is need for self evaluation in this situation, and I intend to do so. A close friend told me, sometimes you have to let people learn the hard way, even the people you love. So, I will be letting this go...it may take time but I vow to let the drama, hurt, and misunderstanding go. I have so many other things going on in my life, that HAVE to focus on; friends that value and keep me in reasonable priority, and my health to name a few. I do not pray on anothers downfall because I know karma is real and the universe takes care of ALL things. So, I do not have to be vindictive.
Ultimately, I know I need to work on loving and understanding myself so that I may stop beating myself up for my vulnerability or open trust. Because somethings you just can not avoid because neither of those things are negative. One most just be careful who they let utilize their vulnerability and open trust. My goal is to apply it as a life lesson and learn from it.
I am trying to defy paradox...I will talk about that another time.
I know one of the reasons I got the most upset was because, I was upset at myself. I have had the same solid circle of friends for over 7 years, which has been fantastic. I do not let many in that circle or take on many (random) friends. I have several acquaintances but not to many best or close friends. I was upset at myself for letting my guard down and becoming vulnerable enough to allow someone to be shitted on.
I can be impulsive when I feel violated, it is like a defense mechanism. I know there is need for self evaluation in this situation, and I intend to do so. A close friend told me, sometimes you have to let people learn the hard way, even the people you love. So, I will be letting this go...it may take time but I vow to let the drama, hurt, and misunderstanding go. I have so many other things going on in my life, that HAVE to focus on; friends that value and keep me in reasonable priority, and my health to name a few. I do not pray on anothers downfall because I know karma is real and the universe takes care of ALL things. So, I do not have to be vindictive.
Ultimately, I know I need to work on loving and understanding myself so that I may stop beating myself up for my vulnerability or open trust. Because somethings you just can not avoid because neither of those things are negative. One most just be careful who they let utilize their vulnerability and open trust. My goal is to apply it as a life lesson and learn from it.
I am trying to defy paradox...I will talk about that another time.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Chris Brown on GMA
Today was the release of Chris Brown's album, F.A.M.E. This morning Chris Brown had an interview with Robin Roberts where she continuously tried to ask Chris questions about his 2009 domestic violence arrest with ex girlfriend Rihanna. Roberts just kept bringing the "beating" up. I think this was unexpected, the questions were inappropriate, and extremely low, on behalf of Good Morning America. I feel like they did this for ratings and it was wrong because that incident is two years old. He is trying to put the bullshit behind him, focus on his new album. He has done his community service and paid his court fines and dues. Rihanna has moved on, why in the hell would she ask those questions, besides trying to get a rise out of him? Best of luck to Chris. I hope he rises above the negativity.
I have heard the album, and so far- I love it. Well done.
"Bomb" & "Love the girls" are two of my favorite tracks
I have heard the album, and so far- I love it. Well done.
"Bomb" & "Love the girls" are two of my favorite tracks
Japan: Heal The World
There are still thousands of people missing after Japan's earthquake and tsunami. Many have washed out to sea or have been trapped under debris. These typed of natural disasters are extremely devastating . There is said to be over 10, 000 people dead. I keep Japan and its people in my prayers. I times like these, it's hard to find the words to say....donate if you can. Keep Japan lifted.
I am not saying this to downplay or take away from Japan's disaster but there are still starving people in Haiti, months after their devastation. We need to lift the WORLD in prayers. I say this to provoke thought not to offend or attempt to compare.
I am not saying this to downplay or take away from Japan's disaster but there are still starving people in Haiti, months after their devastation. We need to lift the WORLD in prayers. I say this to provoke thought not to offend or attempt to compare.
Libya Lies???
What is really going on in Libya? Many are questioning why there is no (debatable) sufficient footage of all the hospitals, schools, and civilians being attacked in Libya. Also, people are speculating that U.S intervention had nothing to do with democracy or the safety of the Libyan people. The coalition said the No Fly Zone was created to protect civilians but the severity of the air strikes are a bit excessive, making their initial reasoning inconsistent. Therefore, making their arguments a bit weak.
The latest "solid" news we have heard is about the U.S fighter jet crashing due to equipment malfunction. The U.S released a statement insisting the plane was not shot down. Now, the pilots of that plane are safe,which is great, and back in the United States! The. U.S military said Moammar Gadhafi's tanks and snipers are terrorizing civilians. I have read contradictory articles; some saying that U.S intervention was not an attack on the Gadhafi and many articles insinuating that, that was exactly the priority of the intervention. President Obama held a press conference yesterday where he plainly stated that "...it is U.S policy that Gadhafi needs to go." I think many people are supportive of the president but what the United States desires is a lucid and clear-cut understanding o what are position is. Who really knows???
The U.S expects more Arab support, and apparently there will be some Arab nations involved in controlling the no fly zone. I am sure the U.S.A will ask, long time ally, Saudi Arabia to join their forces.
It is definitely an unclear situation. As we dig for more but like so many other world incidents, where the U.S intervenes, things remain cloudy.
On a much lighter note I am elated to know that the four NY Times journalists, that were kidnapped, have been released. After being abused and threatened to be killed for six days the journalists are now safe :)
The latest "solid" news we have heard is about the U.S fighter jet crashing due to equipment malfunction. The U.S released a statement insisting the plane was not shot down. Now, the pilots of that plane are safe,which is great, and back in the United States! The. U.S military said Moammar Gadhafi's tanks and snipers are terrorizing civilians. I have read contradictory articles; some saying that U.S intervention was not an attack on the Gadhafi and many articles insinuating that, that was exactly the priority of the intervention. President Obama held a press conference yesterday where he plainly stated that "...it is U.S policy that Gadhafi needs to go." I think many people are supportive of the president but what the United States desires is a lucid and clear-cut understanding o what are position is. Who really knows???
The U.S expects more Arab support, and apparently there will be some Arab nations involved in controlling the no fly zone. I am sure the U.S.A will ask, long time ally, Saudi Arabia to join their forces.
It is definitely an unclear situation. As we dig for more but like so many other world incidents, where the U.S intervenes, things remain cloudy.
On a much lighter note I am elated to know that the four NY Times journalists, that were kidnapped, have been released. After being abused and threatened to be killed for six days the journalists are now safe :)
A few randoms about ME...
I read Tolstoy, I listen to hip-hop, I like Thai food, I do not like watermelon, I write, I love my friends, I like gangster movies. i love my yorkie, fav color is purple, i love watching movies, fav foods are buffalo wings, mac & cheese, and tacos, i love reading. bambi
Saga is getting married!!!! (short post)
Next summer (summer 2012) one of my oldest friends is getting married. I am so happy for her. She has definitely had her share of bad apples or frogs (so to speak), but I am pleased to say she has gotten her prince charming after all. Jeremy is a fantastic guy, and I think, the perfect match for her. When Saga and I were young we always used to try to guess who would get married first, me or her. Well, she got it, and I am more than happy! I am so blessed to be the friend of such a beautiful woman, and more than honored to be a part of the bridal party.
In her honor this post is in pink (her favorite color).
Pink, Black, and White: Wedding Colors
Stay tuned for details...and wedding fun. I still have to get my bridesmaid and dress shoes not to mention I want to shed a few lbs. I am happy you will be along , for the ride.
In her honor this post is in pink (her favorite color).
Pink, Black, and White: Wedding Colors
Stay tuned for details...and wedding fun. I still have to get my bridesmaid and dress shoes not to mention I want to shed a few lbs. I am happy you will be along , for the ride.
A little lite facebook drama
Good Morning All! I was not going to address this but I said, why not. A few days ago I posted a status on facebook that made some of my fb friends angry or uncomfortable. It is posted directly below in red.
March 17 at 12:57pm
It was not my intention to offend anyone. It just bothers me to see all these young women and men having babies, that 1) Can not afford a child/ children 2) Are quite immature 3) having babies for the wrong reasons (i.e babies are so cute, my cousin/sister had a baby, now I want a baby). And yes, I am being judgemental here! Just so we are clear lol.
Listen, I understand that things happen. But these planned young, unwed pregnancies are out of control, in my opinion, to the point where people are always asking me "why don't you have a baby yet?" I mean, can I be focusing on my career? Can I get married and start a family. I have not even finished my education or found "myself". Maybe I want to travel without any strings attached. Is it wrong that I want to be selfish right now and better my selfish? I am a woman, I understand this but I do not appreciate being viewed as breeder or a mere baby vessel. Babies are beautiful and a blessing but do not push your views on me. This is the easiest way to get a sharp response. To all the new parents, congratulations and best wishes. It is all love but I felt that I needed to address that.
I will close with my last fb status update:
March 17 at 12:57pm
It was not my intention to offend anyone. It just bothers me to see all these young women and men having babies, that 1) Can not afford a child/ children 2) Are quite immature 3) having babies for the wrong reasons (i.e babies are so cute, my cousin/sister had a baby, now I want a baby). And yes, I am being judgemental here! Just so we are clear lol.
Listen, I understand that things happen. But these planned young, unwed pregnancies are out of control, in my opinion, to the point where people are always asking me "why don't you have a baby yet?" I mean, can I be focusing on my career? Can I get married and start a family. I have not even finished my education or found "myself". Maybe I want to travel without any strings attached. Is it wrong that I want to be selfish right now and better my selfish? I am a woman, I understand this but I do not appreciate being viewed as breeder or a mere baby vessel. Babies are beautiful and a blessing but do not push your views on me. This is the easiest way to get a sharp response. To all the new parents, congratulations and best wishes. It is all love but I felt that I needed to address that.
I will close with my last fb status update:
Intimacy in a healthy relationships (Adult Content)
I just would like to pose a few questions. Do you think it is okay for one or a couple to not have sex in a romantically intimate relationship? How and why can it OR can it NOT work? If your partner does not satisfy you, do you go to other lengths to satisfy yourself, do you verbalize your feelings with your partner?
Here is my take on some of those questions, please feel free to share your opinion. I do not think it is okay to NOT have sex in a romantically intimate relationship unless it is a mutual decision. I believe sexually intimacy is a large part of that romantic intimacy. I believe that is a crucial indicator of how a couple connects. Now, that is not to say I do not think romantic couples exist with out sex. In fact, I know they do, it is just a matter of opinion that I believe sex is important. For example, I do not think it is okay for a one to stop having sex with their partner, wife or husband, etc because she/he has made a more serious commitment. It may sound crazy but trust me, people do it! They sex to get there partner and then once they feel like they have them, sex stops! That is WRONG, no matter how you put it. It seems as though people who do this are trying to control their relationships by with holding sex. Now when infidelity comes in the relationship, that is a completely different story. I had to mention that because I know that might come up.
Secondly, I think it is okay to talk to your partner if you are not satisfied sexually. Hell, you may not be satisfying them. But, it is important to be sensitive and respectful when having these discussions. All conversation about sexual satisfaction should be clear to be in regard to improvement NOT "bedroom bashing". With that in mind, I also see no problem utilizing unorthodox tools into the bedroom that may improve sex between your partner and you. Whether that be sex toys, role playing, fetishes, definitely exploring different positions, different places (other than the bed), light bondage. There is nothing wrong with a little hair pulling.
Whatever you do keep your partner involved. After all, that is why they are called your (part)ner :) That makes me think of this episode of 'In The Bedroom with Dr. Laura Berman', it comes on OWN, where a married woman claimed that her husband did not give her any pleasure. The only way she could be stimulated is with a laundry basket. Now...she would literally straddle the laundry basket and rub her clitoris against the laundry basket while having sex with her husband doggy style. Imagine how that made her husband feel? She wasn't keeping her partner involved. He did not even have to be there, honestly. But, I am interested to here what you think?
Here is my take on some of those questions, please feel free to share your opinion. I do not think it is okay to NOT have sex in a romantically intimate relationship unless it is a mutual decision. I believe sexually intimacy is a large part of that romantic intimacy. I believe that is a crucial indicator of how a couple connects. Now, that is not to say I do not think romantic couples exist with out sex. In fact, I know they do, it is just a matter of opinion that I believe sex is important. For example, I do not think it is okay for a one to stop having sex with their partner, wife or husband, etc because she/he has made a more serious commitment. It may sound crazy but trust me, people do it! They sex to get there partner and then once they feel like they have them, sex stops! That is WRONG, no matter how you put it. It seems as though people who do this are trying to control their relationships by with holding sex. Now when infidelity comes in the relationship, that is a completely different story. I had to mention that because I know that might come up.
Secondly, I think it is okay to talk to your partner if you are not satisfied sexually. Hell, you may not be satisfying them. But, it is important to be sensitive and respectful when having these discussions. All conversation about sexual satisfaction should be clear to be in regard to improvement NOT "bedroom bashing". With that in mind, I also see no problem utilizing unorthodox tools into the bedroom that may improve sex between your partner and you. Whether that be sex toys, role playing, fetishes, definitely exploring different positions, different places (other than the bed), light bondage. There is nothing wrong with a little hair pulling.
Whatever you do keep your partner involved. After all, that is why they are called your (part)ner :) That makes me think of this episode of 'In The Bedroom with Dr. Laura Berman', it comes on OWN, where a married woman claimed that her husband did not give her any pleasure. The only way she could be stimulated is with a laundry basket. Now...she would literally straddle the laundry basket and rub her clitoris against the laundry basket while having sex with her husband doggy style. Imagine how that made her husband feel? She wasn't keeping her partner involved. He did not even have to be there, honestly. But, I am interested to here what you think?
BANTU KNOT OUT RESULTS
BTW, BANTU KNOTS look so good on LOCS!!!!!!!
Tell me what you think... or leave suggestions if u have any?
Also, I am trying to figure out a way to do a loose bun on my hair. Any suggestions? I may be going to the hospital soon, and I do not know if they will admit me but just in case, what should I do my hair?
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Trip to NC >>>>> Back in NY
I was in NC for a few days last week and I had a blast!!!! S/O to all mi amors. Despite the business I had to handle I had a wonderful time. I stayed with friends and really laughed so much that I still have a pain in my side. We watched youtube videos, video conferenced with friends, ate well, and had great convo as usual. I look forward to a fun full summer with my ladies. I hate that I did not get to see some of my friends but next time. I had a great time but I am happy to be back in Brooklyn.
African American Protective Styling
I have never, since being natural, had a "protective style" and I really would like to get one soon. I have been super interested in two syles, in particular. My first style is are flat twists into a bun, my second is a full (braided up) sew in weave. I really would like a short, sassy, funky style but idk abt cutting my real hair to achieve that look so that s why the weave option is appealing to me.
I do have a few concerns about the weave style though. Maybe someone can help me. I have never ever worn a weave and I know nothing about what kind of hair is good to use? How much is too much to pay to have something like this done? And is weave even a good protective style, if the hair is braided underneath?
I attempted a bantu knot out last night. I have not taken t out yet BUT I will def let you guys know my results. In fact I will take pics an upload them for you to see (failed or not failed).
PEACE & CURLS
I do have a few concerns about the weave style though. Maybe someone can help me. I have never ever worn a weave and I know nothing about what kind of hair is good to use? How much is too much to pay to have something like this done? And is weave even a good protective style, if the hair is braided underneath?
I attempted a bantu knot out last night. I have not taken t out yet BUT I will def let you guys know my results. In fact I will take pics an upload them for you to see (failed or not failed).
PEACE & CURLS
Intervention in Libya
"The use of force is not our first choice" President Obama made this statement in response to his decision to go forth with 'Operation Odyssey Dawn'.
I am a supporter of Obama and I understand what his intentions are; to attack Muammar Gaddafi but 110 missiles? I am just uncertain about this decision. Was it the right time, or too late? Should we have attacked Gaddafi's sooner? All I could think about was the billions of dollars the missiles cost- which I know is not even a conversation (at this time).
I just hope the fighting does not continue for too long and the initial reasoning for this broad coalition (USA, France, Canada, Italy, & Britain) merits it purpose. There needs to be some progress, that is for certain.
The president did say there would be limited military intervention, and that no ground troops will be deployed, which is good but when you are dealing with a tyrant like Gaddafi one can not help but to be nervous with uncertainty of how things will pan out. We will just have to continue to keep faith and support our president's efforts.
I am a supporter of Obama and I understand what his intentions are; to attack Muammar Gaddafi but 110 missiles? I am just uncertain about this decision. Was it the right time, or too late? Should we have attacked Gaddafi's sooner? All I could think about was the billions of dollars the missiles cost- which I know is not even a conversation (at this time).
I just hope the fighting does not continue for too long and the initial reasoning for this broad coalition (USA, France, Canada, Italy, & Britain) merits it purpose. There needs to be some progress, that is for certain.
The president did say there would be limited military intervention, and that no ground troops will be deployed, which is good but when you are dealing with a tyrant like Gaddafi one can not help but to be nervous with uncertainty of how things will pan out. We will just have to continue to keep faith and support our president's efforts.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Oral Confusion (ADULT CONTENT)
I recently had a conversation with a close married friend who disclosed she does not perform oral sex on her husband O_o.
What is this about you wonder? Well, she told me that she doesn't feel comfortable doing it. She does not know if he enjoys it or if she is doing it "correctly"- so she would rather refrain. Do any other women or men feel this way about their significant others?
If this is not the main reason or the reason why you do not give oral sex to you mate or significant other, please share. Why does oral sex talk make people blush? Is it because people like it so much that they become embarrased because the thought of oral sex alone, is enough to make one excited? ;-)
SN: Ladies & Gents one of the most important facets of good oral sex is the 'giver' finding pleasure in pleasing their partners rather than just "doing it".
What is this about you wonder? Well, she told me that she doesn't feel comfortable doing it. She does not know if he enjoys it or if she is doing it "correctly"- so she would rather refrain. Do any other women or men feel this way about their significant others?
If this is not the main reason or the reason why you do not give oral sex to you mate or significant other, please share. Why does oral sex talk make people blush? Is it because people like it so much that they become embarrased because the thought of oral sex alone, is enough to make one excited? ;-)
SN: Ladies & Gents one of the most important facets of good oral sex is the 'giver' finding pleasure in pleasing their partners rather than just "doing it".
Bad Hair Days
So lately I have been having some BAD hair days. My curls are very defined but they are so parched and dry!!!!! -_-
My hair lacks all softness and it is killing my flow. I have been paying more attention to the directions on all my products to make sure I am using the correct amount. I use all natural products so I know it is not that. I admit that I am a product junkie and I can sometimes get out of hand with excessive products but I have recently been doing good not buying products I do not need or will not use. Before I buy a product I always do an extensive amount of research on products before invest and the line I am going to be trying is 'My Honey Child'. I am trying O'live You Deep Conditioner & O' Honey Hair Mist - which I have heard fantastic things about. I would like to try the O'live You shampoo an conditioner.I also am interested in the Jessi Curl and Curl Junkie lines. But, for now....that is all. I will keep you updated on the results of the My Honey Child :)
Love ya curlies!!!!
My hair lacks all softness and it is killing my flow. I have been paying more attention to the directions on all my products to make sure I am using the correct amount. I use all natural products so I know it is not that. I admit that I am a product junkie and I can sometimes get out of hand with excessive products but I have recently been doing good not buying products I do not need or will not use. Before I buy a product I always do an extensive amount of research on products before invest and the line I am going to be trying is 'My Honey Child'. I am trying O'live You Deep Conditioner & O' Honey Hair Mist - which I have heard fantastic things about. I would like to try the O'live You shampoo an conditioner.I also am interested in the Jessi Curl and Curl Junkie lines. But, for now....that is all. I will keep you updated on the results of the My Honey Child :)
Love ya curlies!!!!
My Natural Hair Journey
I started going natural three years ago. At first it was more of a hair health decision. I had been getting relaxers for since I was fifteen, my hair had always been very long BUT it was always shedding. I did not want to accept that my hair could not handle the relaxer but once I did I decided I would go natural. I grew my hair out for about five months. Finally, I could no longer tolerate the two textures so I went to a salon to get the relaxer cut. I did not want to cut all my hair off so the stylist gave me a cute bob and automatically straightened it. I did not even have a chance to embrace my curls. When I tried to wear it curly I realized all of the chemical relaxer was not cut out SO not even a month later I went to go for a BIG CHOP. I went to a salon in the mall where I worked and the stylist cut my hair wet and curly. It was very short AND when I got home I realized it was VERY uneven. I was mortified. Side note: I forgot to mention my regular stylist had moved out of state, so this is why I became a guinea pig lol. I finally found a great stylist and cut my hair cut (straightened of course) but it was even. It started to grow nicely. Three years later, in between regular trims, hair cuts, color changes (pink, blonde, jet blacks, and countless reds) my hair was and the bottom of my bra strap. I loved my long locks. I like to go back in forth from straight to curly, which I know is very controversial in the natural community but what can I say, I get bored easily. I started straightening my hair at home (that was a mistake). It looked great but all the while I was causing major heat damage due to having my flat iron temp. WAY to high. When I was ready to wear my curls it looked a hot mess. So, a few weeks ago I finally went to Devachan and cut off 6 inches of partially damaged hair. I look forward to growing soft, healthy, long curls.
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